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Stress Management   Leave a comment

Have  a little reprieve from seeing shows for a couple weeks.   Time to reflect.

Last  night  I went to  a class at Catholic  Medical  Center about  Mindfulness and Stress Relief  techniques with  Matt and Jeff.   Patty suggested it  to us and  I am so glad she did.   I have had my  share of stress and anxiety in the past  ten months or so  I  definitely needed new methods on  to manage it better.

We  got  a sheet on feeling  vocabulary at the seminar and here are some words that  stood out to me  on this list.


Aggravated and mad:  Mostly at myself for how I handled the situation of a friendship ending and how  I handle rejection from failed auditions. Example  of failed audition: When  I did not do well at the audition for Souhegan Valley Showcase last year or just how   I deal in general with   rejection when I fail an audition such as in the past when  I’ve auditioned for  Stagecoach Productions and Actorsingers.


Nervous: Because I thought how  I was acting  was affecting  how a certain person thought about me.

Now  I know this  was sort of ridiculous because I know this person  likes me. Was she mad at me? Nope.  I have no idea why I thought she would’ve been.

Sad: Especially because Dan and Gerry passed away and   I have constantly been thinking of how much  I miss them.  My  dog was put to sleep on Thursday too.

Anxious: See above notes about a friendship ending.

Unfocused: Because of all the feelings  I mentioned above which  I why I had to  take a break from SVC this semester and just focus on Wizard Of Oz. Last year  I realized   a huge part of my problem that  I was being  pulled in too many different directions between chorus,   the play and SVC  Board Of Directors.

Frustrated: Because tech week can be stressful and  I lost my cool a few times during Wizard Of Oz.

Grateful:     High School graduation has passed.  I have actually been kind of sad because  I am going to really   miss  Naomi and Matt next year as they are the two  kids  who are graduating  who  I’ve grown the closest to.  I know that they will meet amazing new people on their journey to their next chapter and can’t wait to hear where it’s going to take them.   I am also  grateful for my friends and family who helped me through my stressful time as I dealt with all these various emotions.


During the class  I was able to take  a  step back and reevaluate things.   I realized that all this negativity gets me nowhere  especially since  typically I am  a really  positive person .  Time   to turn the negatives into positives.   The 1st part of 2017 has been  a learning  curve and a time for growth and change for me. Here’s  to the next six months being  more happy!


Thank you again  Patty for recommending this class.  It was incredibly helpful.




Remembering Dan.   Leave a comment

“So  I say  thank you for the music

The songs I’m singing

Thanks for all the  joy they’re bringing

Who can live without,  it  I  ask it in all honesty

What would life be?

Without   a song or  a dance what are we?

So I say thank you for the music, for giving it to me.”

~ Thank You  For The Music  Mamma Mia

I have been having so much trouble coming up with the words to properly capture  how I feel  about  Dan Wolaver passing away.  I couldn’t speak at the services today because  I did not feel  I was ready to talk yet about how much he has meant to Matt and I.   Listening to the song  Thank You For The Music from Mamma Mia   (quoted above) finally allowed me to gather my thoughts.

I joined  SVC in  Fall 2014 and Matt joined the following  fall semester in 2015.   Everyone   was very welcoming to us  especially  Dan.    We both have found a second family  within the chorus and are so happy for all the friendships we have made.  Dan’s guidance  was  very important to both of us.  The last time  that that I saw him  he came over to my apartment with  suggestions for songs we could use for  future duet auditions and also gave us  an arrangement of  I’m  A  Believer from Shrek The Musical that can be used as a quartet.    Unfortunately we could  not audition for the  Showcase since we will be going to   at a wedding  but we are planning to audition for the Milford Pumpkin Festival talent show in September. Name of quartet is to be announced but of course it will be  a Shrek related quartet name.    Our audition and performance if we get chosen will be  dedicated to Dan’s memory.    Dan also  put a poem  I wrote  called Angels On My  Shoulder to sheet music which  I hope to be able to perform at some point.  Matt  also  added that  Dan got  him involved with reading music and what  the terminology meant and is  grateful for that.

So yes indeed, Dan  thank you for the music and all you have done for SVC.   Everyone in SVC will miss you very much but  I think Matt and I will miss you the most of all. We love you.

A time of reflection   Leave a comment

Saturday afternoon  I was hit with the sad news that  Dan Wolaver from Souhegan Valley Chorus passed away.   I am  still trying to process  everything as   I am sure everyone else in the chorus is. I have been in SVC  f0r 3 years and  he along with everyone else was so welcoming when  I first joined.   SVC  has become a family to me and what makes me the most sad about Dan’s passing was that he was the president of  our chorus and such a vital member of the group.    He has really done so much for us and  I am going to miss him a lot.  I think all of us will.  He recently helped  me out with putting  my spoken word piece Angels  On My Shoulder to sheet music and  I was deeply appreciative of him   for  helping me out with that.  I hope to perform that song at some point  but  I don’t know when that will happen.


Rest in Peace Dan.

Happy New Year!!   Leave a comment

Technology is frusturating! I swear to you! Have attempted numerous time to post a video blog but every time I try to post it I keep getting an error message saying I do not have enough storage to save it. Figured writing a blog post pretty much practically the same way. I will just have to post some photos of the Christmas gifts I got.

Anyway.. Happy new year to all fellow theatre fans and followers of this blog!  

2015 highlights

New Jobs- 2015 started out with stress as I was I between jobs for the first 3 months. I finally got a job at the Plus Company in April 7th. I have been there for 7 months. I work as a database administrative assistant and I scan documents in to the computer as their goal is to move all of their client files into an online database.

Poetry Class:  In addition to my job at PLus I teach a poetry class in their Adult Education program. The next session starts on January 13th and will be every Wednesday from 1-2pm. I have  seven students and am looking forward to working with them. The goal is to get poems for the Janine Book website.

Getting Jellicle: This year’s PTA play was CATS. Quite frankly when I first found that out I was diappointed because I was excited to do Beauty and The Beast but they could not get the rights. I was assistant sound designer which was a great experience which I learned a lot from.

SVC Board Of Directors: In June I was elected to the Souhegan Valley Chorus Board Of Directirs  as head of publicity. This has been a huge learning experience for me. I learned a huge lesson in time management because I waited till almost tge last minute to get a press release into the newspaper. I felt like I let myself and others down but  I have put a plan in place to stay more on top of deadlines.  

Babies: A few of my theatre friends welcomed new babies this year. Hooray for new members of my theatre family: Aurora,Lucy,AvonLea,Leo and Adam. 

On The Rooftops Of London: I was in Mary Poppins with Friends of The Amato Center. Please see entry from November 1st in which outlines my experience.

Favorite Shows seen in 2015: You’re A Good Man Charlie Brown,Crazy For You,  Shrek The Musicak, American Idiot,Cat On A Hot Tin Roof, Into The Woods, Wizard Of Oz & It Runs In The Family
And what to look forward to in 2016:

Shrek:  I have PTA play auditions on Tuesday night. I am auditioning for Pinnichio but know the show will be a lot of fun no matter what part I get cast in.

Writing More Poetry and Short Stories: For the past 3 years  I have been writing a lot of  fan fiction. This has gotten boring for me and I want to write more stories with my own characters and more poetry. 

See more shows at theatres I haven’t seen shows at or theatres I haven’t been to in awhile

These theatres include

  • Comminity Players Of Concord
  • Winnipasaukee Playhouse
  • Palace Theatre Youth Company
  • Manchester Community Theatre Players
  • Windham Actors Guild
  • Peterborough Players
  • Peacock Players

See movies at either Red River Theatres in Concord or Wilton Town Hall Theatre. Variety is good since mostly when I go to the movies I go to Chunky’s or Cinemagic.

Work on my bullying play: I also hope to make sometime to work on the bullying play I stared working on prior to Princess K.I.M.  The Musical.

Assistant directing: When I interned at the New London Barn Playhouse I had a great experience assistant directing Bravery Soup. Should the opportunity arise I would love to assistant direct a youth show again…at the Amato Center,Actorsingers or Peacock Players.

Memories: Looking firward to all memories that will be made with family and friends.

Posted January 1, 2016 by theatretechdiva in Non-related ranting

Top 30 Favorite Somgs of 2015 & Top 10 Fave Songs from Stagecoach Production Shows   Leave a comment

Here is my top  30 list of favorite  songs from shows seen or performed in 2015.

Key: * SVC Spring Concert **SVC 1930s Showcase *** SVC Holiday Concert

1. Anything Can Happen Mary Poppins

2. No One  Is Alone Into The Woods

***3. Nuttin’ For Christmas

4. If I Can’t Love Her Beauty And The Beast Jr

5. Be Strong Princess K.I.M. The Musical

**6. Over The Rainbow Wizard Of Oz

7. Being Mrs. Banks Mary Poppins

***8. That’s Christmas To Me Pentatonix

9. Merry Old Land Of Oz Wizard Of Oz

*10. I’ll Be There Michael Jackson

11 Uptown Funk Marc Ronson f/ Bruno Mars  Art Of Dance. Also official theme song for the CATS cast because we had killer dance parties backstage to it.

12. Together Whereever We Go Gypsy

**13 Nearness Of You Ella Fitzgerald

14. Slap That Bass Crazy For You

15. America West Side Story

16  My Blanket and Me You’re A Good Man Charlie Brown

***17 I’ve Got My Love To Keep Me Warm

*18 Let’s Call The Whole Thing Off

19. Freak Flag Shrek The Musical

*20.  We Are The World Michael Jackson and Lionel Ritchie

21 If I Were A Bell Guys and Dolls

22. Agony  Into The Woods

23. Skimbleshanks The Railway Cat CATS. Can’t wait to perform this at the NHTAs!

24. Happiness You’re A Good Man Charlie Brown

25. Home Beauty And The Beast Jr

***26. 12 Days Of Christmas Straight Note Chaser

27. Memory CATS

28. Make A Move Shrek The Musical

29. Step In Time Mary Poppins

30. My New Philosophy You’re A Good Man Charlie Brown

Oh and also Stagecoach Productions is closing. Here is a list of  my top 10 favorite songs  from shows I have seen there.

1. Too Darn Hot Kiss Me Kate

2. Barcelona Company

3. Happiness You’re A Good Man Charlie Brown

4. Getting Married Today Company

5.Climbing Over Rocky Mountain Pirates Of Penzance

6. Another Openin’ Another Show Kiss Me Kate

7. Ain’t It Good Children Of Eden

8. Beethoven Day You’re A Good Man Charlie Brown

9.Poor Wanderin’ One Pirates Of Penzance

10. What I Did For Love A Chorus Line

Finding the words to say…….   Leave a comment

Back in June my high school music teacher Pat retired..she will be missed by a lot of people and she was a great teacher. I found out before schoool started that they were not going to be replacing her. This news was very shocking and disappointing. I was originally going to write a letter to the editor  of the Amherst  Citizen but then I retracted my decision. The main reason  was because I felt it wasn’t really my place to say much about the situation because I did not know too much information about why the school board made the choice not to replace Pat. I can only make assumptions and sometimes assumptions may not be the best things to make. Knowledge is power so they say therefore it is hard to base an opinion off little knowledge of what is going on.
I do know the following though…based on general observations I have made throughout the past couple years as I like to support the Souhegan Theatre and Music departments as much as I can by going to the plays, concerts and jazz nights.

I graduated from Souhegan 11 years ago and back when I was in high school all the music ensembles had large numbers of people in them. I don’t really know what exactly has led to the decline in recent years in participation in music but I think the low numbers in the music department definitely affect the people who try out for the musicals. The chorus is basically the feeder system for those to try out for the musicals and thus far the band is the feeder system for the pit orchestra. For example for the 2013 Musical the pit band only had four people in it. Last year when I went to see the spring concert I noticed that the chorus had about 20 people in and the Acapella group had about 16 people in it. All girls and one boy.

I sat there wondering “What  leads to the decline in participation in the music groups at Souhegan? ” Perhaps the decline in numbers led  to the choice not to replace Pat. I heard that a lot of kids did not initially sign up for chorus  this year because of Pat not coming back. On the plus side Kim Whitehead got hired to teach Acapella and Handbells which make me happy because she is awesome.  Carl is temporarily teaching chorus until a replacement for Pat is found from what I understand. I think that spreads him a little too thin because he already teaches all the band classes and jazz band.

I am then left to wonder about the future of  the theatre department of Souhegan and also the musicals. This year’s musical is going to be The Boyfriend which I am excited to see again after seeing it out on by Riverbend Youth Company back in 2009.  If the music ensembles work as feeder systems for the performers in the plays and pit orchestras and the participation numbers are as low as I’ve noticed them to be recently what this mean for future musicals?

Budget is the thing that it all boils down to I guess and I estimate that budget cuts  and low participation numbers led to the choice not to replace Pat.  This is disappointing to say the least. Some people may think that sports are more important than the arts and that’s probably where most of the budget money goes to.

During Meet Me In St. Louis I remember having a conversation with one of my cast mates backstage about how neither of us were involved in sports…during the course of our conversation we deducted that in its own way theatre can be definitely considered a sport. We spend 3 days a week learning dances  and getting our bodies and voices perfect for performance.  Not to mention that all the musicians who are in the music groups at Souhegan go to local,state and also national competitions to show other people how good at their craft they are. So yes, music and theatre go hand in  hand and both can be considered a sport.

I wish the arts got a little bit more respect and the people who wrote the school budgets saw things from this point of view.

2015 in Review   Leave a comment

A Reflection Of 2015

2015 started off stressful as I was still on the job search. I was still substituting for the Nashua School District and also an after school program at Presentation Of Mary Academy in Hudson,NH. Both of those positions , I realized were not a good for me. Luckily, I was hired by the Plus Company, ironically the same place that helps me look for employment. I am have been working there since April 7th as a database assistant where I help in scanning documents into the computer. I also teach a poetry class after work of which the second semester will start after the holidays. The goal of this class is get submissions for the Poetry page on the website that correlates with the Janine book.

I am thrilled for the success of the Janine book. My mom and I have spoken at local schools, my college and my old elementary school in Saugus. It is up for a National award which I am excited about. I am hoping to make a second business out of going to schools to share my story of overcoming challenges. I am also excited for the future of Princess K.I.M. The Musical which got national rights and we hope it will be performed in local theatre companies.

Theatre wise the year began with the NH Theatre Awards. Last year’s PTA play Seussical
 did not fare as well as I had hoped receiving eight nominations and only one win for best actress. ( Refer to my previous post  for my general comments about the NH Theatre Awards)  I worked backstage for the PTA play CATS where I tried something new as assistant sound designer. It was a great experience that I learned a lot from. This year’s nominations have not been announced yet. I am also looking forward to auditions for this year’s PTA Plys Shrek on January 3rd. Matt and I were both in Mary Poppins at the Amato Center in September which a great way for us to learn and grow together as actors. I was in the Park Ensemble and he was a banker in the Precision And Order scene. We are also in the Souhegan Valley Chorus together and are grateful for the friendships we’ve gained with people from that group including Jenn Erdody,Roger Hurd and Jonatha and Patrick McCarty.   

I also would like to take a moment to mention the fact that Stagecoach Productions is closing. I was very sad to hear this news. I have helped out with their publicity and  this company bought little known shows such as Jekyll and Hyde,Little Women,Pirates Of Penzance,Children Of Eden, Kiss Me Kate and Big Fish to the NH Theatre Community. Thank you to everyone at Stagecoach a Productions especially Judy Hayward for all you’ve done! 

Matt and I have been together for seven years and have been discussing getting married in the next two to three years. Naturally I would like to have a Broadway musical inspired wedding. We love living in Clocktower Place but it is our goal in the next year or two to get a condo in Nashua. Our long term goal is to move to Portsmouth or another town on the NH Seacoast or in Southern Maine. We are looking forward to vacationing in early March in Florida going to Disney and Universal Studios, Hooray for Wizarding World Of Harry Potter!

And so it’s been said many times many ways Merry Christmas to you! Here’s to a prosperous 2016 with wonderful family and great friends!